Mar the Martian

In trying to compose a list of New Year’s Resolutions, I thought I’d skim back through my journal to see if could see any recurring themes. In the process, I ended up picking out a few excerpts to post on my blog. I started my journal on June 12th, so it’s only half of 2011, but oh well. I still have half way to go in this one, and I just bought a new one for when I finish it, because one of my six 2012 new year’s resolutions is to aim for writing in it every day. The italicized text is a quote, prayer, or song lyric from others with which I always begin an entry, and the text in quotation marks is from my thoughts that follow. With that being said, going through this made me realize I’m mosdef ready for a new year and new beginnings.

Sunday, June 12, 2011 - 12:50PM

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. - The Serenity Prayer

Wednesday, June 15 2011 - 10:35PM

Yeah, she caught my eye as we walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, fucking high and I don’t think that I’ll see her again, but we shared a moment that will last ‘til the end. - You’re Beautiful by James Blunt

Thursday, June 30, 2011 - 9:18PM

“All I want to do is succeed. All these obstacles trying to impede my goals/my family right now - we can get thru it. I need to keep positive and keep believing it….I feel like all I could do it help my family is do well in school, stay out of trouble, and pray. Pray a lot.”

Thursday, July 14, 2011 - 4:26AM

Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets; so love the people that treat you right, forget about the ones that don’t, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it. - Anonymous

Sunday, August 21, 2011 - 11:49PM

“I really need to grow and develop more as an individual before I can engage in anything with other people.”

Friday, September 9, 2011 - 7:02PM

“I’m almost too emotionally detached to express these feelings into words; it’s almost like I have so much going on in my head that there’s nothing there….I’m tired of being the strong one - I feel like I deserve to cry sometimes.”

Monday, November 7, 2011 - 4:33PM

When a good thing goes bad, it’s not the end of the world. It’s just the end of a world that you had with one girl. And she’s the reason it happened, but she’s overreacting. And it’s all because she don’t want things to change. - Doing It Wrong by Drake

Thursday, December 15, 2011 - 8:25AM

“You got this - strive for more, strive for excellence…work hard, never let up.”